Well as I talked about yesterday on my other blog http://bikinghillbilly.blogspot.com/ about feeling so very blue on these day around the holidays.Working so very hard not to slide down the slipperier slope of my depression, the black of this is starting to close in on me.
It's funny as I write about this it sits there on my right side like an old friend, showing me clips of past dark times. Almost like you remember this one. This was one of your finer moments.
They're not and that's why things are different these time this blackness come a calling, yes I pull myself inward into my inter light. The inter light were its warm, not cold like the black that wants to take me to places I've been before. Places I don't want to go to a final darkness so cold, I keep the warmth close.
The light in my soul will over take the blackness that wants to take me. My light has what I need to help move forward, to sustain me and help me make it. I have faith in myself that this is just a hard part of my road, and that my journey is being tested.
Still it hard oh so very hard to right a ship that is taking on water, sometimes you think maybe it just might be better if you give in to the darkness, and let it cascade over me taking me. Removing all of the good I have.
That would be wrong, to give up?
Roll over, I will on roll over. Not for the likes of you!
Then the darkness will sit and weep like a small child.
"What's wrong darkness?" you'll say. "Why are you crying?" you'll add.
With that you are taken away from all who love you, away from all who care for you. You'll hurt anything and anyone who wants to get in your way. Not caring or maybe not knowing in what you are capable of, bad things. Hurtful things! Things that would make the hard core inside turn themselves inside out.
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